The Joy of Photography

When I was seven I found old Life Magazines in the attic. My parents had kept the ones from the war and for a year I used to go up there after school, look at the pictures, cry, then go play softball.  When my parents realized that I had found them and how they affected me, they burned them, but it was too late, those pictures had burned into my brain.

Outwardly I was normal, but those images were always with me, and in my dreams.  Even now I can see them, the man who had tried to escape the burning barn, the concentration camp. I majored in Sociology in college, then spent a few years traveling around Europe singing for my supper.  I’d spend the days wandering around, searching for adventure, meeting all kinds of eccentric characters and loving their stories.  When I ran out of money I’d sing again.  I settled in New York, got a job, tried to figure out what I wanted to do.  Something meaningful, not just work.

I was starting to worry.  Then one day I woke up and wanted a camera.  I borrowed one.  I had never taken a picture before, and as soon as I held it in my hands it felt good.  I never had the sense of holding a machine.  I read the instructions, went out into the street, shot two rolls, had them developed.  I was thunderstruck.  It were as though I had been taking pictures for years, but in my head, without a camera.  “That’s it,” I said.  “I’m a photographer.”  What a relief.

Photojournalism was always it for me.  Those pictures in the attic had set my course.  Those, and all the characters I’d met.  To tell a story in the blink of an eye, have it printed so that millions of people could see it and wrap their fish in it, to have my pictures reach people the way those Life magazines had reached me, now that was doing something.

I am self taught.  I got a copywriting job to support myself and I started learning, devouring books and looking at good work, walking a lot, and shooting.  Those early years were fired with an intensity and passion I had never felt before.  I was obsessed and driven.  I thought about photography all of the time.  And my pictures, if no one else had liked them, it wouldn’t have mattered, I loved them. Sometimes I’d look at them and think, What if I wake up one day and it’s gone?  What if it goes away like it came?

With each paycheck I bought equipment and built a darkroom and when I finally made my first print, I was hooked for good.  It was the first time that I had ever finished something I had started.  My father used to say, “You blow hot and cold.”  But it was magic, watching it come up in the developer.  I still feel it.  I worked hard, learning my craft.

 I like to work two ways, either on a specific idea or just wandering around, getting lost, snapping.  Eventually all the wanderings go together, and then I find out what I’ve been doing.

Photography is magic.  You can stop time itself. Catch slivers of moments to savor and share time and again.  Tell beautiful silver stories, one photo alone, or many playing together to form a book.  A photograph is a sharing, it says “Hey, look at this!”, it’s a miracle, is what it is.  And when you’re going good and you get a new picture you love, there’s nothing better.  That’s the joy of photography, and the fun.

– Jill Freedman